Monday, January 01, 2007
Happy New Year
To me, a new year had never meant so much before. It has always been a normal day to stay home and slack my hours away. Or rather, I was too anti-socialised to do anything. For this year, I could say that it has been much more meaningful than others.
After knowing that you might leave Perth to study abroad for a few months, I don't know what to say. I tried to forget about the whole thing but it seems to just float in my mind all the time. I think to myself - from the time we started going out until our recent six months anniversary which is near Christmas - I will have to spend those six months all by myself and without you by my side... all to me seems so unreal. I'm trying not to expect too much cause I have a strong feeling that you will go. After all, not all relationships will be always stable. There must be some sort of obstacles around. Since new year, I think what will happen and how life will be ahead of me. I became so scared sometimes... I'm not as strong as you think I am. But I will try to be no matter what happens.
There are some things that I can't control.
Nevertheless, I'm glad that I've spent the first few hours of the new year with you. Love you loads. I hope we can do that every year.
*HUGS*
After knowing that you might leave Perth to study abroad for a few months, I don't know what to say. I tried to forget about the whole thing but it seems to just float in my mind all the time. I think to myself - from the time we started going out until our recent six months anniversary which is near Christmas - I will have to spend those six months all by myself and without you by my side... all to me seems so unreal. I'm trying not to expect too much cause I have a strong feeling that you will go. After all, not all relationships will be always stable. There must be some sort of obstacles around. Since new year, I think what will happen and how life will be ahead of me. I became so scared sometimes... I'm not as strong as you think I am. But I will try to be no matter what happens.
There are some things that I can't control.
Nevertheless, I'm glad that I've spent the first few hours of the new year with you. Love you loads. I hope we can do that every year.
*HUGS*
blessed with love ... at 12:14 PM