Thursday, November 30, 2006
Tuesday Night Tenting
Ok, I really want to take back what I said but I will leave it there. I don't even know if you read anymore. Ok, under ignorant... fine.
Tuesday night tenting was fun. But I was really grumpy. Get pissed off over little things? Get pissed off at you and everything. I didn't mean to but I can't help it. Sometimes it's just normal reflex. I guess if you do read this then you will understand more. But if you don't, what can I say.
You know, I get angry easily. Not because I'm "xiao qi". It's because I cannot stand some things sometimes. I also know that I have my own temper. But when I get angry, I cannot take back all the words I have said. Hence that's why I feel so sad when I get angry at you. I feel so angry that I feel like crying. I can't help it much. I know you try to understand as well. You are very protective of me and I'm complaining about that cause I like it. But I think I'm holding you back too much that you are losing your freedom. I don't think you like it cause I could tell. That's why the more I told you not to do something, the more you want to do it. Nothing much I can do. I tried to change but because you are so protective of me as well, I feel like I'm always stuck to you and rely on you alot. I suppose that's a good and bad thing in a way. But there's just this feeling that I cannot be separated from you all the time. When I do, I just get so uncomfortable. So maybe you understand why you don't much freedom after being with me. I don't know if there is really the case. Suppose you can tell me via next blog entry... if you decided to READ the blog =
Yer, I can't get over the no-trace-of-ken in this blog. It makes me uncomfortable and I think too much. I hate it.
Tuesday night tenting was fun. But I was really grumpy. Get pissed off over little things? Get pissed off at you and everything. I didn't mean to but I can't help it. Sometimes it's just normal reflex. I guess if you do read this then you will understand more. But if you don't, what can I say.
You know, I get angry easily. Not because I'm "xiao qi". It's because I cannot stand some things sometimes. I also know that I have my own temper. But when I get angry, I cannot take back all the words I have said. Hence that's why I feel so sad when I get angry at you. I feel so angry that I feel like crying. I can't help it much. I know you try to understand as well. You are very protective of me and I'm complaining about that cause I like it. But I think I'm holding you back too much that you are losing your freedom. I don't think you like it cause I could tell. That's why the more I told you not to do something, the more you want to do it. Nothing much I can do. I tried to change but because you are so protective of me as well, I feel like I'm always stuck to you and rely on you alot. I suppose that's a good and bad thing in a way. But there's just this feeling that I cannot be separated from you all the time. When I do, I just get so uncomfortable. So maybe you understand why you don't much freedom after being with me. I don't know if there is really the case. Suppose you can tell me via next blog entry... if you decided to READ the blog =
Yer, I can't get over the no-trace-of-ken in this blog. It makes me uncomfortable and I think too much. I hate it.
blessed with love ... at 12:32 PM